I got my first ever blowjob from a man this weekend. This is the fourth part of a five-part blog series about how it went down, and how I feel about it all.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 (current post) | Part 5 (coming)
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The mid 20’s well endowed Spaniard with his long wavy hair stood there holding the curtain aside to the vacant room. He was only wearing a thin towel around his waist, and my mind wandered back to the sauna where I got a look at his nicely endowed manhood. But without much hesitation I said “sorry, I really need to get to bed,” and left.
He looked slightly disappointed; he’d already disclosed to me that Japanese guys weren’t his type. And there weren’t many other Westerners around at the sauna. But looking back, I’m not surprised by my own reaction. That was the first time in my lifeI had ever been propositioned by a man. Invited in for sex, by a man. I freaked out. I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. I didn’t want to admit to him that I’d never been with a man before. Ever. So I left.
I went back to my private room on the 7th floor, stripped out of my gown, and lay down on the futon. My heart was still beating fast and I just couldn’t relax. I had purposely avoided cumming for a week leading up to my stay at the sauna hotel, so I was probably a little sexually frustrated too. So resolved to ‘get back to basics’ as it were, and just start with something I knew I enjoyed and was comfortable with: masturbating to porn.
I whipped out my iPad, connected it to the tethering on my mobile phone and started browsing the offerings on PornHub…before long I was getting into a groove. All this time I had the door to my room closed, but I then realized that one of my recurrent fantasies is that of being watched while masturbating. What better place to explore that fantasy than here?
So I opened my door, leaving it slightly ajar, and carried on.
A long-time fantasy finally coming true, a few guys peered through the slightly ajar door, watching me stroke my cock. I felt empowered, excited to be watched. The guys came and went, until one guy stopped and watched for a few minutes before pushing the door open, bowing politely, and entering my room. He closed and locked the door behind him, and knelt down at the end of my futon.
I don’t remember much of his face, but he was shorter than me, and much skinnier. I sat up and crossed my legs, all the while stroking my cock. I leaned over and pulled at the cloth belt holding his gown around his torso, and he undid it, revealing his body and small cock. He let the gown drop to the futon. We were now both naked, sitting in front of each other.
I got some lube I had carried from home, squeezed some out onto my fingers, and started massaging it into his cock. He seemed to twitch with pleasure when I touched his cock. He was enjoying it. There was no verbal communication; either he didn’t deem it necessary, or he didn’t realize I could speak Japanese.
Before long, he was hard. I was surprised at how large he was when he was erect. Perhaps 13cm or 14cm; his flaccid state belied the potential of his erection.
He had now reached out and was gently caressing my cock with his hand. He leaned in and kissed my left nipple, flicking it with his tongue. I have never responded to my nipples being sucked, and today was no exception. But I took it as a sign that perhaps he might like it, so I licked my finger and rubbed his left nipple gently. He nearly jumped out of his skin; it was obviously a clearly erogenous spot for him.
I was super aroused at this point. My cock was throbbing and adrenaline coursing through my body. So when he leaned down further and put his lips around my cock, I did nothing to stop him. It felt amazing. Warm, soft, slippery…so gentle. After 20 seconds or so, he sat up and we continued to masturbate each other.
Caught up in the excitement, I then bent over and took his cock into my mouth. I remember thinking it was narrower than dildo’s I’ve practiced deepthroating on before…but in any case, he seemed to appreciate my efforts. As if working on automatic, I pressed my mouth deeper on his cock, pushing it as deep as it would go into the back of my mouth…I was actually doing it. I was deepthroating another man.
I pushed my tongue out the base of his cock as it was in my mouth, and my gag reflex kicked in. I retreated and revelled in the excitement of the moment. I took his cock into my throat a few more times, and it looked like he was getting close. I asked him if he wanted to cum, and he looked surprised.
"Are you one of those guys who doesn’t like to fuck?" he asked quietly.
"Yes," I lied, not really ready to go into the details of how I’ve never fucked or been fucked by a man before.
My Japanese friend gave me a few more strokes on my cock before reaching over my shoulder for the tissues on the old dated bedside table, whispering in my ear “sorry.”
It was clear he was expecting to either fuck or to be fucked that night, and didn’t want to waste any time with someone not available to fulfill that expectation. I was, for the most part, not fazed. I had just been sucked, and sucked a complete stranger, for the first time ever in my life, and that reality was starting to sink in.
My brief partner wiped his cock clean, gracefully donned his gown, stood up, and opened the door. He turned as he was leaving and asked gently “should I leave the door ajar for you?”
I said yes please, and settled back onto my futon, halfheartedly stroking my cock.
I lay this way for another few minutes before shutting down the iPad, closing my door, and laying down to think. I thought thoughts like, how many guys have sucked that guy tonight? And, what if he (or any of those partners) has herpes or Gonorrhea or syphilis or any other multitude of STIs? How does he, and all the other guys in this building right now deal with the risks associated with having sex with strangers? Am I being overly cautious? Am I over-thinking the risks?
I went to sleep that night, at around 1:30am, without cumming, and with mixed feelings and a mind full of questions.
(To be continued…)
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 (current post) | Part 5 (coming)