First gay experience! A bit of a long read...
lundi 3 août 2015 à 20:15Last Thursday night was interesting. I decided that enough was enough and that it was time to find out what this bi-curious deal was really all about. After having read tommyjones651’s amazing experience in a Tokyo gay sauna (go read it here: http://tommyjones651.tumblr.com/post/102226856551/first-time-gay-blowjob) , I was curious to try this out myself.
After spending some time on Google, I was pleasantly surprised to find a similar place in my own city, with great reviews and everything. So, I decided on a night that I had thought would be perfect and hopped on the bike into town.
I found the place pretty quickly, it was in some alley connecting two bigger roads, hardly any people were walking in and out. With adrenaline pumping through my body, I walked towards the entrance and just as I was getting closer, a couple walked out and started to check me out as if they were ready to go back inside with me. I was suddenly overcome with nerve and walked past the entrance… This wasn’t going too well. I decided that I needed to calm down, walk around the block and smoke some weed before trying to go back inside. Besides weed though, I had also taken 300mg of Sildenafil, aka Viagra. I’ve been dealing with depression for a good while now and let’s just say it isn’t exactly beneficial to your libido. On top of that, the anti-depressants I was taking were pretty much killing off the last bit of sexual appetite that was in me.
Although I do wake up with raging boners each morning (perfect for those Tumblr posts), I hardly ever act on those by jerking off till I cum. Now that I was about to walk into a gay cruising sauna, I hadn’t come for well over a month… so yeah, viagra was going to help me out.
Luckily on my second pass, there was nobody there and I walked in. Lo and behold, the same couple was checking back in, and they looked back at me. It would’ve been hot if they were my type, but they were both older and acting very feminine.. and I was looking for more my own kind of body-type and age.
Anyway, I decided to just go with it and see what would happen. I checked in, got my free drinks token and a towel and went through the door to the locker room. At least, I thought it was the locker room, turns out it was out in the open and there was a seating area and bar right next to them. I chuckled, thinking that I should’ve known that privacy was going to be the last thing I’d get here.
I undressed and looked around me.. Apparently it was the norm to wear the towel around your hips. I guessed that walking around with your dick out would be an open invitation in the world of cruising.
It was close to 9.30pm and the place was already quite lively. I walked past the seating area into a dark small alley and I passed the hot-tub on my way to the showers. Several guys were just standing around in the halls and just doing nothing, I guess they were waiting or checking out other guys that were showering? I hooked my towel and started to wash myself off. Not only were the changing areas out in the open, the showers had glass walls and were looking straight into the sauna area! I love creativity like this! I actually started to flex the little bit of muscle I have and carefully washed my dick with it facing the glass…
By now I had gotten used to other guys looking and I was sufficiently high that I pretty much didn’t care anymore. I started to look around myself and see if there was actually anyone interesting around.
I had heard a lot about this place, and is supposed to be one of the better gay cruising saunas in Europe. They have a sauna, a turkish bath style steam area, jacuzzi and several open and private cabins. I read that somewhere there was supposed to be a sling hanging and an area with glory holes, but to be honest, the place was a bit of a maze of dark corners and I was a bit disappointed that I couldn’t find those (I was pretty psyched to check out the glory holes, but that will have to wait till next time).
After walking around the dark corners for a while I decided that there wasn’t much happening yet and that it was probably nice to visit the steam room. I popped through some double glass doors and was met with a wall of steam and the sound of dripping water along the tiled walls. I was slowly getting used to the darkness and saw that there were small seating areas with two levels along the walls of the room. In the middle there was an open round structure that was pitch black inside. A perfect place to feel other people up.. I sat down on the second step in one of the small corners and waited… As I sat there, I noticed one after the other guy just walking through the area and looking at people’s faces. Make eye contact for long enough and that was it, you were in for some fun.
Unfortunately I wasn’t really into the guys that walked past, so I just stared at the floor for a while listening to the sound of dripping water, moaning guys and skin banging on skin. It was all happening in the far corner of the room, but I was far too nervous to go and check it out.
Fed up with myself I went back to the showers and walked towards the sauna area. On my way there a guy was in a slight hurry coming around the corner and right before me, he leaned into a sink and spit out a load of cum. Awesome.. again, I decided that yes, that just happened and to just go with the flow. I found the sauna, undid the towel and sat down. A guy roughly my age was sitting across from me and checking me out. I could tell he was at least as nervous as I was. I started to wish that I had also taken some alcohol, because although I was up for trying something, I just couldn’t stand to move and ask him to come over.. that was still a bridge too far for me. The weed was working though and the viagra was definitely starting to kick in. I did enjoy the looks and I felt my dick was getting hard. The guy was trying to look without me finding out. Shit… with all the good stuff going through my body, why was the adrenaline still winning out? As I was contemplating what to do, the guy stood up and left the sauna. I guess he decided that I wasn’t up for it and he would try his luck elsewhere.
Now I was getting annoyed with myself, I had had all these fantasies before coming here, and now I was acting like a child. This wasn’t why I was here!
I decided to cool off with a quick shower and go back to the steam room.. As soon as I got back and sat down somewhere I looked next to me to see a pair of younger guys taking turns in sucking each other off. As I was getting used to the darkness, I saw more and more and noticed a bunch of other guys standing against the walls, looking at what was happening. Sometimes a guy would walk past and gently stroke the ass of the guy standing there having his dick sucked. I was getting properly turned on… and I was getting noticed. It was one of the guys from the beginning of the night that saw me check in! He quickly sat next to me and started rubbing my legs. Ok, I was feeling a little bit groped to be honest. I thought that mutual eye contact had to be established first? As I mentioned before, the guy was completely not my type either and after brushing him off for a few times I got up and walked to another corner and sat down for a while.
There weren’t any clocks to indicate the time anywhere, but I must’ve been inside a good few hours and so far I was just being nervous while others were having fun. I remembered Tommy’s blog post, about how he was in his room with the door ajar, jerking off… and that’s when I decided ‘fuck it!’. I took the towel off, made sure my dick was in the little bit of light that there was, and I started to jerk off. Despite the nerves, I was hard as a rock and now this was pretty much going to be a free for all.
Guys walking around suddenly stopped and started to watch. I didn’t really see anyone that I wanted to invite to join me, but I just continued to jerk off slowly. I sat there for a while, when a guy approached me, climbed up and sat down to the left of me. I was now beyond caring, so when he started to stroke my legs I just let him. It wasn’t the same guy from before, although he was probably 10 years older than me, taller and completely smooth just like me. His hand was slowly moving up until he touched my balls. I kept jerking off while he started rubbing my balls. I spread my legs a bit and leaned back, and soon his middle finger was pressing against my asshole. I let go of my dick and he took over from me. He started jerking me off and my hand was now on his legs, inching towards his dick. I decided to go for it and grabbed him.. this was the first dick other than my own that I had ever touched. It felt pretty similar to mine, same girth, same length.. just his head was a bit smaller than mine. I played with his foreskin, pulling it back and forth and running my fingers carefully over his exposed head… Whilst he kept jerking, I slowly moved down to reach for his balls. I managed to wrap my hands around them and slowly tug his balls tight. He started moaning, I think I found his soft spot. While he started to jerk me off faster, I looked around and saw a group of guys just standing there and watching, some of them jerking off. We had their attention and I was getting properly hard.. the guy must’ve noticed, because he climbed down a step, kneeled down in front of me, pushed my legs open and took my whole dick in his mouth as if it was nothing… My hands were now free and switched between grabbing his shoulders and moving his head up and down my dick. I felt like a king on a throne and the guy was having a blast. As he moved his head back and forth, I could feel his tongue going around and rubbing the head of my dick like crazy. At the same time, he was jerking off vigorously… I was suddenly acutely aware of what was happening and my nerves got the better off me yet again. I felt myself losing my erection, despite the guy doing an amazing job of taking care of me. I started to panic a little, because the last thing I wanted was not to cum. I whispered sorry, but he didn’t care and just kept on going. Within moments he moaned loudly and shot his load right between my feet. I felt like apologising again, but he got up, moved his mouth to my ear and whispered ‘Thank you so much!’. He got up, walked away, looked back and said ‘Thank you’ again.
I was flustered, I guess in the end he got what he was looking for, although I was frustrated that I wasn’t able to cum. I went back to the showers to clean myself off, but as I was thinking about it, all in all it had been a pretty big evening for me and I guess I shouldn’t really be upset.
I jerked off in public, I had jerked another guy off and got my dick sucked by a guy. No wonder I was nervous. It was enough for the night, this place wasn’t going anywhere and I would have plenty of opportunity to come back until I got over my nerves enough to get off myself. After chilling out in the lounge with a drink for a while, I got dressed up and left.
Thinking back about all that has happened that night, I am still curious to go back to see if I can find more people of my type on a different night. Maybe as I come back, I will get over my nerves and be less surprised with everything that is going on there. On the other hand, maybe I am just more of an exhibitionist than actually looking for gay experiences, and is jerking off while others are looking enough for me to get off. I will find out the next time I guess. I’m in no hurry and like I said, that place isn’t going anywhere. Maybe I will feel more comfortable if I get to know a guy first. Maybe I should swipe right on a few guys and see where things go.
I’ll keep you guys posted at least, I had fun that night and the fact that I wasn’t turned off is proof enough for me right now that I should continue to explore these feelings. What do you think?
Definitely worth the time to sit back and have a read…it got me turned on!
