First, your English is totally fine :-)

Second, thanks for the question. In short, an extremely nerve-wracking experience. If you read through the entry about my spa experience, I even refused the first proposition I recieved. I was scared.

The reason I tried something so casual was simply because I really wanted to share the male sexual experience with another guy. That is, I am a guy, and I know what it is like to be turned on as a guy (yeah, I know…bad assumption to make based only on what I have experienced of my own sexuality). I know the raw, almost animal sexual energy I feel, so I wanted to share and experience that with a guy…I wanted to ‘be on the same page’ sexually with someone…arouse in him what I feel when aroused…raw and unbridled male sex (not necessarily anal sex…the logistics of that is something I haven’t quite got my head around yet).

In order to experience that, I suppose I could have gone to a gay bar or something…but that would have required conversation etc…I just wanted to be in an environment where I was surrounded by naked, washed, available bodies/flesh…and what better place than a gay sauna?

Of course, the reality is much more complex. Oh how fun it would be to fuck and suck and tug with absolutely no risk of health repercussions! But the fantasy is nice :-)

And in the end I threw caution to the wind anyway and allowed a guy (totally and completely anonymous to me then and now) to give me the most amazing head…his mouth and touch was exquisite.